first proper post on the first blog. lol.
i organized my first ever bbq today outside my house. in charge everything- from the marination of food, to the contact work, to the logistics. i must say it really gives me a sense of satisfaction hearing people saying thanks from sincere hearts and leaving with a happy stomach saying that ‘the marination was good’. at least i know that they will be willing to try my bbq the next time i cook. haha.
but good things comes with heavy price tags. sometimes i really feel as if i’m carrying the world on my back. having a good family relationships, having good friendships, servings in church, work for my future study plan, study hard. why is it that i am putting in so much effort and no one is willing to go the extra mile. whose fault? co-workers not putting working hard enough or me being too perfectionist? ultimately, God, people weigh the actions but You weigh the heart. forgive me for losing my cool with my mom, it really pricks me because its ironical- here i am building relationship with outside family, when the event is over, my inner relationship are broken….-_-
quite regretful initially for not saying why i wanted to have the bbq (i even thought of a formal invitation to start dinner before i slept, lol, over-perfectionist?). the reason is so that the family could spend some time in a relax atmosphere catching up on what each other is doing. but i when i look back, guess some things need not be said, its felt.
thanks sophia and sisters for really helping out so much. bbqing the food, lending me equipment, setting up to the clearing up. i really couldnt manage it alone. my mind was all over the place. and also uncle roland for lending me the bbq pit and saying the food is not bad. lol. he critics quite abit, like father like son. lolol.
its been a tiring 2days. from work to prepare, wake up, work and prepare. but im really thankful for these 2 days. i had days when i am really bored till i could just help my mom do housework as an exercise and force myself to finish reading books. lol. once again, to ppl reading this post, its hypocritical getting closer to friends, relatives, and breaking the ones at home. take that home today, treat your mom better. hahhaha.
