todays, wedding was one of the most meaningful ones ive ever attended. everyone was sincerely wishing Cynthia and Moses a blissful and eternal marriage. it was such a warm event seeing all the old faces that are ‘lost’ from your memory gathering and wishing the newly weds sincerely. and a gentle warm touch over ur inner side when Cynthia struggled to read the last sentence, ’till death do us apart’. another reason i thought why the ceremony was so ‘homely- warm’ was because every section was a reminder that the Cynthia and Moses could be married on that spot was because of God’s grace and providence. such a great reminder that we are one in the family of God.
there was however, a weird stir of feelings seeing everyone so close in such an event filled with happiness. has anyone of us feel tat life isnt lived to the fullest? that you are not as close to your friends as u wish u could be as those that seems to be so close among their group. or sometimes just feel happy being together, but dint know how to get ur ‘message’ across. occasionally, when the night falls, there would be a strange indescrible feeling that stirs up within you, seemingly like your heart asking your mind, ‘are u living life to the fullest? does the ppl arnd you know tat u care? if u are sincerely happy in a particular scene or just simply able to see someone, why do u have to think how should u do? are u building walls instead of bridges?’ i feel happy seeing pam and deb. but it was just so awkard to go up and ask them how they are doing now and if everything is well. i feel happy to see lumina dressed so beautifully, but just find it weird and out of the blue to just praise them. i feel happy that cynthia and moses are finally blessed togther, but just find it hard to open that mountain full of gold-filled mouth to wish them a lifetime spent together. i want to change this man. i want ppl to know wad am i thinking instead of just seeing me stoning in my thoughts. i want ppl to feel my feelings instead of just being a wet blanket in the midst. i dun care if its the family culture not to praise ppl, or friendship ring that is over conservative, i want to be known inside out. i dun wanna get that regretful feeling that my time with my friends are not well spent.
